im sorry; i havent been on in so long. this blog used to be like a release for me; a place i could just vent and not be ashamed of my thoughts. this blog has helped me in ways even real people havent been able to. Now that im better, i have nothing to release but happy vibes. I love you all, youve been such a big support for me, i feel like i owe you everything <3
to every single person on this website; you are beautiful inside and out. no one in this fucking world has any right to make you feel otherwise and if you do, you tell me there name and ill go break their legs for you. You are a wonderful person who deserves nothing than the best. this world was made for us to suffer, but you’ve gotta show them that you wont give this fucked up world what they want, that you wont do it quietly, that you will hit the highest highs before give this world what it wants. Go out in style, because every single one of you guys are FABULOUS
I love you all <3
Truth is; I’m trying to get better. No more sad thoughts trying to get me down. We all deserve to be happy. We just have to stop getting these depressing thoughts in the way of everything. i will always be here for you guys no matter what. I understand and I will try to help x
so he said, “we need to talk… you’ve been on and off lately and it scared the hell outta people…. there are people who care about you out there, believe it or not.”
and thats it. Thats probably all he will say to me for the rest of the week till i deactivate my fb account again. do they not understand that that hurts more? being told that people care about you but having them act the complete opposite. i dont understand. are you lying to me? where are these so called people who care about me? because right now i feel like i have absolutely no one. God fucking damit. i just want to go back to my actual home. why did i even leave?
or why dont i get an actual friend for once? why am i always left out? the people surrounding me get everything they desire, they dont even try. it gets handed to them on a gold platter.
God, if you can actually here my prayers, then im praying for a better life.